Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Dating the Military

I had a pretty good father daughter talk today about Josh B. Dad really likes him because he knows he's a good guy from meeting him and that he's in a position to take care of me, although he'll be gone all the time. I dont need to be taken care of. Its why I went to college, to make a career for myself, make my own money and be as independent as possible. Guess it is how I was raised. It must be a dad thing to want someone to be there for me when I'm truly on my own when I graduate. I've always relied on my parents, something that I wish I could say I havent, but I dont regret it because I dont think I had it in me to get where I am today without their support.Y I love josh, but it worries me how everthing works out in the end. Right now I feel like I'm dating the military. He's only 20, a sargeantm, and crew chief/mechanic for blackhawksj. I'm incredibly proud of him and everything he's accomplished in life. He's been on his own since he was 14 due to the death of his brother, and because of this he's so much more mature than I ever was at 20. It never feels like I'm dating someone younger than me. He's very protectived and caring. We do have our little tif's, but I think that's what every relationship goes through when things are still new. I think it's especially stressful on our relationship knowing he deploys EMP in June. He wont even be around for Valentines day before he deploys for some more trainingU. Not that it really changes much. He goes to work at 0600 and usually does not get done until 0100. It's crazy and something I struggle with understanding. He tells me all the time I'll be seeing less and less of him the closer it gets to his deployment because of all the training involved. I hate everything about not seeing him, and some days it gets to me. I guess eventually I will learn from it and be stronger. I have to. I dont have a choice.

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